Mourning Journal
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17 Jan 2012, 11:19
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At 8.37 a light was gleaming through a little hole in my curtain, rudely awaking me out of my dreams. Step by step i went closer to my window and lurked through the peephole.
All i recognized was the sun slowly melting the frost crystals on the trees, grass and the last remaining leaves.
I started to think about my future, what i did in the past and what i will do.
Does it actually make sense? Have a lived a good life?
I guess everyone has the same aims, all you want is what you can't have and if you just look around man, you see you got magic.
So just sit back relaxing and enjoy it while you still have it, don't look back on life man and only see tragic.
Because you could be better than that, don't let it get the better of you. What could be better than now? Life's not about what's better than. You can be better than that. Don't let it get better of you. What could be better than now? Life's not about what's better It's about YOU
So tell me, do you have a real wish/aim in your life (which is satisfiable?)
Right now i just got the aim to pass 2 upcoming exams for my study, because if i fail in 1 of them i wasted 2 years studying...
All i recognized was the sun slowly melting the frost crystals on the trees, grass and the last remaining leaves.
I started to think about my future, what i did in the past and what i will do.
Does it actually make sense? Have a lived a good life?
I guess everyone has the same aims, all you want is what you can't have and if you just look around man, you see you got magic.
So just sit back relaxing and enjoy it while you still have it, don't look back on life man and only see tragic.
Because you could be better than that, don't let it get the better of you. What could be better than now? Life's not about what's better than. You can be better than that. Don't let it get better of you. What could be better than now? Life's not about what's better It's about YOU
So tell me, do you have a real wish/aim in your life (which is satisfiable?)
Right now i just got the aim to pass 2 upcoming exams for my study, because if i fail in 1 of them i wasted 2 years studying...
Living on my own piece of land with my wife and few kids. Maybe somewhere around middle-europe, eastern perhaps. Cooking up my own moonshine.
I just need to find some nice girl with rich land-owning parents first... I am nearly there already...
my dad planted peaches 12 years ago also for a hobby, so he had something to do when he came back from work bla bla.
now 12 years later peaches surface doubled, working around them doubled, production doubled, selling doubled, we also started to employ people on occasisons.
see my point? :)
hoe was je verjaardag? :)
anyways woke up an hour ago. got some minor seminar corrections to do, and basically whole week is free. so planning to get wasted tonight. later going to the city to spend some money on nothing :)
only thing i rly want actually. but exams now :(
I passed the exam, answered all the questions just as if I was filling an ordinary form, bought a beer, came back to my place and now, i'm enjoying life!
So, how I see myself in the future. Well, I'd like to be translator and to work for a giant company, you know, the kind of thingummy which offers a lot of advantages and kicks you out after 5 years. And then.. Well, I don't know, maybe become teacher, a cool teacher, work 25 hours a week and travel as much as possible.
Every month, the state keeps a little sum of money and gives it back in July & August.
lees ma beetje door, staat ergens dat het kan oplopen tot 4.5k
en 2k is best veel idd als je al die vakanties meetelt.
especially those in schools like carpenters, bakers, masons, blacksmiths and shit. one must have some serious balls to go and teach in one of those schools :D
I had a teacher in the past who was always joking, playing with his mess on his desk, telling us cock and bull stories, making a fool of himself, etc. But he was the best the school had to offer, and seriously, I was amazed by this guy.
You know, the teaching in Belgium (I should say Wallonia but for all I know we are still a country (gateway to some flemish NV-A whines)) is really stinky. Could you imagine an English teacher talking 50 minutes in French and 10 in English? From 14 to 16, I had to deal with a retard who spent the period on his chair, read the stupid book with a flat voice, had no knowledges about the world outside and was alwaaaaayyys away from school (kinda easy with a Doctor wife..).
If you have motivation, it should have repercussions on students..
But on a serious note, GL & HF!