My RTCW blog

I installed RTCW maybe 10 years ago now after my cousin told me about it. I was a public noob on prizeplay mp_beach server only for about a year or two. I clanned with a bunch of guys known by ET names as lynX, Norzia, adzz, etc (most of you guys won't know these people because you've only been around for a couple of years). I can't remember much about these days and if I was any good at all. Of course I remember being sent a opengl wallhack and using it on a pub and getting busted like a day after I was sent it and since then, having to fight pillar to post to clear my name, at the same time giving up very easily after I was knocked back down, and making matters worse by taking over channels and flooding people. I don't have many other memories of RTCW though, I remember Infensus vs GMPO in quakecon final and the famous Infensus walk on assault. I never really followed the game that much back then. But playing RTCW again and seeing the players that I wanted to be as good as back then, in action again has given me some motivation. I feel like a student who is going up against the masters who showed me the path.

I stayed loyal to RTCW for as long as I could. When my teammates left for ET when it came out, I played RTCW for at least a year until it came to the stage that the game was completely dead and everybody was playing ET. Now fast forward, I see myself playing the very game I started off with. However, no longer having to fake nick because teams won't play against and with me.

Playing this game for the last month has made me realise what I've been missing. I was thinking about it and really I can count on one hand the exciting moments from playing ET over the who knows how long. Playing for UK after being an outcast for years, captaining UK to a bronze medal when nobody said I could do it, being casted by TosspoT in a match where my adrenaline was pumping for an hour straight. And erm, I can't really think of many others to be honest. I don't think I'd have any sort of satisfaction or excitement if I won eurocup, or esl cup, etc. I hoped that one pound fish would ask me to join them for lan when they needed a player as it was a team full of people that I like and was liked by, which is extremely rare in the "highskilled" et scene, but I guess they didn't rate me as a player and did not think I was good enough for them. And I felt even more betrayed when they bragged about winning the lan and said I achieved nothing in the game and rubbed it in my face that I wanted to join them after eujen said I wasn't happy that they took crumbs instead of me. But that wasn't to be anyways, and really there is nothing else left for me in ET that would give me that excitement feeling and motivate me to carry on. Of course, I'll never find the same excitement I found in Brink. Playing with some great players who never bitched on comms, and just played the game. Had no problems with me and vice versa. And getting to play at the largest gaming event in the world after beating Dignitas in the semi finals. This is the only thing I ever showed my parents in relation to gaming. My mum couldn't believe I was standing there in front of thousands and that I brought home a medal and won some money :P

Back to RTCW/ET, in terms of the actual community, the RTCW community is a hundred times better than the ET one, since most of the players are mature. It seems the ET community is mainly full of kids and wannabe funny guys trying to prove something, turning me into something I'm not as I feel the only way to adapt is to lower myself with the trolling and flaming in order to communicate with them.

Anyway, babbling too much now. In a nutshell, it's been great playing RTCW for the last month or so. It's lit a new fire inside of me :D I feel motivated again and want to win, which is something in ET I haven't cared about for ages. Hell, I played half of my matches without my contact lenses in because I didn't care about losing anymore. I can't believe that I ignored RTCW for all this time and remained ET only when RTCW is a more enjoyable game for me and the community is a lot more friendly. I guess the fact that RTCW was completely dead, meant that I had no other choice. I really can't see myself playing competively in ET again (will always play with almighty boys though!) even if or when the RTCW hype dies down, because this would be a nice way to end a decade of on and off gaming. Hopefully there's a lan for it too, that would be the icing :-)

Thanks for reading, fellow crossfire comrades.
b2k



P.S. Make sure to watch this match! -> http://www.gamestv.org/event/36333-team-mortis-vs-kreaturen/