I am sad

During the loserbracket final I was very angry and bored, reasons:
-I did not sleep for 20 hours.
-I knew already godsinc will fold.
-Mulsu played WoW instead of prac.
-We didn't play prac in the last 3-4 weeks.
-I don't have girlfriend.
( and I can continue this list easily :( )

Now i checked that everybody hates me, I think the reason is that EC match against idle. I dont want it, I hope it will change in the future, becouse i am usually and normaly friendly.

I give it for example:
-17:01:40- ąąşą Kick» (Nonix) was kicked by (FroZzeN) (like...not welcome anymore,sry ‹285›) (#sth/)
-17:02:06- (Nonix) ?
-17:02:11- (FroZzeN) bah
-17:02:14- (FroZzeN) lot of ppl said
-17:02:17- (FroZzeN) they dont like u
-17:02:36- (Nonix) why?
-17:02:39- (Nonix) what i did?
-17:02:52- (Nonix) I said something?
-17:03:02- (FroZzeN) no dunno
-17:03:05- (FroZzeN) they dont like u :>

Sorry for irclog but it was important now. I know and understand i deserved it. I am very unhappy and i cant change the past. :-(

(sry for poor english)