Big Bag Of Whine!

i'm gonna whine for a bit :P i'm a decent player, hell people say i'm a good player. but certain things have been eating at me recently. i've sat here watching inferior players getting sponsorship, and playing in cups, and im thinking 'wtf, how is he playing at that level, im better than him!'. a bit bitter i know but meh. the thing that has got to me recently is that teams/clans i've beaten have been getting on ettv! for example, tonight nfp played on ettv, i beat them like 2 weeks ago! 4-2! had braun in like 4 mins! took them 5 dynos before they blew it. took us one. yet do i have an ettv appearence? do i hell. so yeh i'm having a big whine :P getting it out of my system :) btw im cless ;)