first week @ rL

Dear diary,

I've spent my whole first week in real life after 4 years of pure geekness.
I've made this decision due to having high-school graduation, I need to learn in stead of playing. I've allways been a pretty cool student in the past, but this time I had to spend a couple of days in order to get my old rythm back.
Of course, real life consists of several, different activities, not only learning. Therefore I've started to practice some kind of physical education - I'm working out 5 times a week in the local gym (which is actually the best one in Budapest). Besides that, I'm also playing basketball for fun with my classmates.
But..
Is real life a real real life without girls?
Not at all.
Of course, I've started to search for a nice hottie in order to complete my new lifestyle. And I've found one.
But she was so stupid, that she not only refused me, but she kinda sent me to hell.
Erm, what???
Yes. That is the situation. Her first reaction was that I'm ugly.
Yes, I'm ugly. And I can't change that.
I've changed so much in the last couple of months, that I already started to think that I can't become any better than this.
Hmm well..
I really do not know what else I could do. I'm wearing the coolest clothes out there, I'm having a nice haircut, etc etc etc...
I am really starting to fall in deep depression at the moment.
The funniest thing in this story is that the bitch is still checking me out all day long, maybe because she knows she has chosen the wrong decision?
I don't know.

HOW THE HELL CAN I UNDERSTAND WOMEN, PLS HELP ME.

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