Dear journal.....

I am still pretty pissed off and irritated about yesterdays game even though it was not a deciding game and it is only a game, but I am only pissed off and irritated 46.8% what I was yesterday but still my skin burns and ny nipples are hard and I was 1.8% away from going berserk and seriously hurt someone that was outfitted realy anarchistic and that was pushing and elbowing people out of the way because he was playing a game of tag(I think) with his friend(I think) and he was way to concentrated on the game while I was on the subway and had plans to take the subway home and later I took the subway back to my home(but not straight away because I picked up some lunch on the way home).
And I have still not been told a satisfactory answer of why vent went down but I don't realy care anymore since I will refuse to use anything but a private vent when we are playing officials and the vent has never ever went down and only reboots once every friday night 3.00 ante meridiem and I will also refuse to play officials on servers where my ping goes from ~55 - ~100 because I have done that one times in clanbase europcup qualitfications versus mega pro gameing and one time versus vae and 4 times(that I can remember right now) in some cups which I can not remember the name of and it is realy unpleasant and it makes me want to proceed to physical violence even though it is only a game.


But now im gonna eat snacks and chill some after a hard day at school. PO