personally, we have a creaky floorboard in the hall so I can hear if people are outside my room which gives me time to minimize any tv, games, imageboards - it's usually a reflex reaction, and usually people don't even end up coming into my room
if they do though ill swivel my chair round to hide a little more and stare at them until they feel uncomfortable and leave again, if they talk I'll respond with "uh" and "meh" noises until they finish what they are doing and leave
if my door gets left open i get up and shut it right behind them to let them know that i dont want my door leaving open
often enough just hearing people moving around outside gives me nausea and my throat gets dry which takes time to fade before i can go back to doing what i was doing
for me it's always very frightening, so i ask you, how do you feel in your room?
omg how i laughed xDD
serious perfo are you afraid??????????? ...............
edit: i feel comfo all the time, i can do what i want until its 5.30 in the morning . then my roommate opens main door and whistles a fucking happy song until ui wanna kill him like every mass-murderer does ( i just feel it that way)....if he will ever do it again i will call fucking police to get this fucker outta here. this fucking trance-listening cocksucker. if there will be a single noise of him again i will either fucking kill him with my baseballbat (yes, i have one) or will just kick-vote this bitch outta that hostel..i swear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sounds to me like you may have schizoid personality 'disorder', which also fits your character from the posts of yours I've read. There are certainly some schizoid/avoidant traits there.
I wouldn't be surprised. I don't even know how to begin changing. I'm lying my way through therapy in the hope that I can get discharged because I feel like shit going all the time but not wanting to change and I just feel like I'm wasting the time of everyone involved.
Get as far away from the pc as possible. Sounds like you be stuck in a self-perpetuating rut. Should hope you're going to uni soon which'll give you little choice... - "is this it / am I happy with this?", end it or change it. Only you can.
Without knowing you it's hard to judge, but from what you've said here you sound a lot like I was (to an extent still am) - aggressive to the family (do not enter my room!), cut contacts with friends, generally resented being moved from the pc / going out, no real motivation to do anything productive, slacked off at college due to the late nights eventually dropping out. And for what? People mock, but shit I know of at least one other person that was like that, so given the few people I know there's gotta be plenty out there...
I cracked 'n realised this can't be it. Moved out & tried to start again. Forced into social situations (thank christ!) - the irony being I've not changed so much. Took a while to realise it's ok to be a geek & still go out some :v
'n I'm sorry to resort to chiché, you regret that which you don't do. It's not a great situation to be in but generally most people aren't as judgemental as you think. Least for me it was like a mental barrier - the rooms safe, the internets safe (lolz internet care what you say!) - but that can't be everything.
Fuck the psychology of it all, just my personal experience.
('n I hope this aint some joke 'n you're taking the piss now!)
One of my unit mates has the annoying habit of walking into my room when I'm asleep. Kinda freaks me out whenever I wake up to her sitting in my room. I suspect her to be a direct descendant from I AM A CAT
that would be the way in home town but we rather keep door unlocked there so there wont be that many windows crashed ( gun would not probably to be meant kill others than animals though)
youd think so. but it isnt. considering your mum comes round 3 times a week to clean and "polish" my brasswork.
nah, but really, the girl im seeing stays mibbe 3 times a week, which by the way, is far too much and starting to worry me. if she comes in my room, well, shes more than welcome, as long as she brings me toast, tea and lots of pedro pics in the daily "gay mans magazine"....
I always leave my door open, execpt when sleeping.
I live in apartment where 3 students share the same kitchen, shower and toilet. Everyone have their own room ofc. The respect for privacy is one thing. But even when the door is open and if someone would come in to my room, I would ask him to leave, politely, and knock on the door/ask may he come in. If he decides not to leave, then I would propably kick his ass :)
Probably pretty much nothing. Ignore them if I'm in a war, explain what I'm doing if they're interested, quit what I'm doing and hang out, whatever. Most of the people who'd be likely to come into my room know me well enough to know everything I'm involved with online. Pr0n would be the only embarrassing thing I guess, but not too bad, since pretty much everybody does it...
Actually that's interesting. Thinking about it, I have five completely separate groups of friends: family friends, work friends and "the guys I know outside work" in real life; esports/ET friends and friends from another community online, I'd be far more apprehensive about people in the real life groups meeting people in the other real life groups unexpectedly than I would about any of them meeting the online groups.
personally, we have a creaky floorboard in the hall so I can hear if people are outside my room which gives me time to minimize any tv, games, imageboards - it's usually a reflex reaction, and usually people don't even end up coming into my room
if they do though ill swivel my chair round to hide a little more and stare at them until they feel uncomfortable and leave again, if they talk I'll respond with "uh" and "meh" noises until they finish what they are doing and leave
if my door gets left open i get up and shut it right behind them to let them know that i dont want my door leaving open
often enough just hearing people moving around outside gives me nausea and my throat gets dry which takes time to fade before i can go back to doing what i was doing
for me it's always very frightening, so i ask you, how do you feel in your room?
Minimize CS, alt+tab to the homework assignment that I should have been working on, and pretend I was being a good boy... that's what I did when I lived with my parents so that instinct is built into me even tho nobody cares if I'm doing homework or not :/
if they do though ill swivel my chair round to hide a little more and stare at them until they feel uncomfortable and leave again, if they talk I'll respond with "uh" and "meh" noises until they finish what they are doing and leave
if my door gets left open i get up and shut it right behind them to let them know that i dont want my door leaving open
often enough just hearing people moving around outside gives me nausea and my throat gets dry which takes time to fade before i can go back to doing what i was doing
for me it's always very frightening, so i ask you, how do you feel in your room?
serious perfo are you afraid??????????? ...............
edit: i feel comfo all the time, i can do what i want until its 5.30 in the morning . then my roommate opens main door and whistles a fucking happy song until ui wanna kill him like every mass-murderer does ( i just feel it that way)....if he will ever do it again i will call fucking police to get this fucker outta here. this fucking trance-listening cocksucker. if there will be a single noise of him again i will either fucking kill him with my baseballbat (yes, i have one) or will just kick-vote this bitch outta that hostel..i swear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cracked 'n realised this can't be it. Moved out & tried to start again. Forced into social situations (thank christ!) - the irony being I've not changed so much. Took a while to realise it's ok to be a geek & still go out some :v
'n I'm sorry to resort to chiché, you regret that which you don't do. It's not a great situation to be in but generally most people aren't as judgemental as you think. Least for me it was like a mental barrier - the rooms safe, the internets safe (lolz internet care what you say!) - but that can't be everything.
Fuck the psychology of it all, just my personal experience.
('n I hope this aint some joke 'n you're taking the piss now!)
2) Get all pissed off because I'm busy
3) Tell her (it's always my mother) that I want her to leave the room
Easy.
e: Apparently it was about getting caught while giving myself a jerk. Sorry, never happened.
^0:D
Very demanding : D
nah, but really, the girl im seeing stays mibbe 3 times a week, which by the way, is far too much and starting to worry me. if she comes in my room, well, shes more than welcome, as long as she brings me toast, tea and lots of pedro pics in the daily "gay mans magazine"....
I live in apartment where 3 students share the same kitchen, shower and toilet. Everyone have their own room ofc. The respect for privacy is one thing. But even when the door is open and if someone would come in to my room, I would ask him to leave, politely, and knock on the door/ask may he come in. If he decides not to leave, then I would propably kick his ass :)
*EDIT* i think its the eyebrows! (or not)
hoi
Actually that's interesting. Thinking about it, I have five completely separate groups of friends: family friends, work friends and "the guys I know outside work" in real life; esports/ET friends and friends from another community online, I'd be far more apprehensive about people in the real life groups meeting people in the other real life groups unexpectedly than I would about any of them meeting the online groups.
if they do though ill swivel my chair round to hide a little more and stare at them until they feel uncomfortable and leave again, if they talk I'll respond with "uh" and "meh" noises until they finish what they are doing and leave
if my door gets left open i get up and shut it right behind them to let them know that i dont want my door leaving open
often enough just hearing people moving around outside gives me nausea and my throat gets dry which takes time to fade before i can go back to doing what i was doing
for me it's always very frightening, so i ask you, how do you feel in your room?
nothing :f
so normally i just keep doing w/e i'm busy with - and sometimes just mute microphone and see whats up.