I sit up in my chair, back pressed hard against the cushion. I place my headset firmly on my head. There is a fresh, warm coffee on my desk. I straighten my arms, move my keyboard slightly to the side, and wipe my mouse pad with my hand: every gamer has his pre-game ritual. These can vary from washing your hands, to a routine that you feel that has become a habit. Regardless, the facts remain the same, I am ready to frag. A practice session, or maybe even an official. Clanbase or ESL, BFB? They're all the same.

Then the question hits me, I've pressed my F3, I'm waiting on others. Probably Netherlands Lightning, or United Kingdom Meez. The question hits me hard, and forces me to zone out of what is on my screen. Where did this all start? When did I become a gamer to this extreme?

These are questions we should all ask ourselves, and I would love you to share you stories.

Nostalgia, back to 2002. I'm at a friend's house, we've been to the circus, and I've gone back to his to play some games I am young, then. He hasn't shut up about this one game all night: 'Return To Castle Wolfenstien', he calls it. I've never heard of this game, its on a computer. I've never played games much on computers, apart from Red Alert. We still had dial-up. I am a Play-station 1 man, from Grandia to Fifa. We enter his dad's office, there are Dell monitors, Dell keyboards. I count three. He grabs me a chair from further down the desk, and logs me, then loads up this game, and then does the same for himself.. A console opens up, it scrolls. Then I see now well recognized RTCW game Menu. We are too young to know about IP address, he calls out the server names, I see if my master server has picked it up yet. We play until late, as late as we can. Beach room defenses. My how they were fun. 30 of us in the doc room. I think I had more ammo given to me there than I have in my whole ET 'career' tallied up.

Fast forward till 2004. I get a phone call to my house phone. I answer with a 'Hello'. It's unusual for me to get phone calls. I am still young. The same friend replies 'Hey! New Wolfenstien is out!' He means ET, I proceed to go round to his house later, where is father shows me this new wonderful game. Siwa Oasis it was, original. He picked the mortar and tried to figure it out, then burnt off two copies, which I played at his house for the entirety of the weekend. I then got my own computer, I wanted to play this game more! It was incredible! I kept playing.

The addition of 'Xp Save' servers and different modifications made for the game, such as 'Jaymod' only made it more addictive and appealing. I don't remember the years now, but I played lots. Publics only, of course. But you soon become a regular at different servers, have small conversations with different people, and so on. I eventually joined a clan that probably still exists: =GK=, standing for Genesis Knights. Turns out the community was small even back then, and friends now such as United Kingdom Mayni was once in the same team. I was still young, immature, and naïve. These sort of things mattered! I was in an honorable clan. Soon I was on a chat program called 'Xfire'. This was in between playing Runescape, and ignoring homework. After this period I joined a team called NMA, No Mans Army, they were probably the days that I was most obsessed with ET. My main bros here were United Kingdom Mindgame and Belgium Cloud. I met Mindgame, but never got round to meeting Cloud as of yet.

Fast forward a few more years, and I've discovered the wonderful worlds of ETPro. It must have been 2007 now. I registered on this website called Crossfire.nu, a website that would be come my soft-core version of Reddit, all the content, just lacking the input of alternative minds. I am now playing with France Rebelli and United Kingdom Elfi in Net: clan, again this would harbor friends of the future, such as United Kingdom Pansy. Me and 'the boys' would play a lot, particularly over the summer holidays, and we became good E-friends. Unfortunately, I lost contact with both. But have regained contact with France Rebelli over the last year and half or so, and he even came to stay at mine in March. Soon we are playing 3on3s lots, low+ is a good way to play, and my God is it a challenge! We get toyed with by skill-bashing opponents. The foolish team players, team play is everything. How I like to do that to my opponents now.

You're a fanboy now, you start watching fragmovies and wondering about these top players. Do they truly exist? Do they really destroy opponents the way you see in the fragmovies? Esrael's movie and Raziel's were the one that bring back the most to me, regardless of how bad they look to me now. I switch configs, we all did.

It kind of goes blank here, I stopped playing with these people, as Net: later died. Shortly after I found myself in my home for many years, and one that I suppose is well known here on crossfire Japanskk!, which I must say was one of the funniest times I've ever had on the Internet. Including the first hide-and-seek games, as well as the hilarity of different videos with people like United Kingdom Noodle and United Kingdom Owzo, Ireland Arcade we found ourselves entertained for hours on end. Videos? The main one that comes to mind is bum-chase. We used to mix a lot. A hell of a lot. We all did it, back then. But things change. The group then welcomed new funny, well natured people such as Netherlands perfo and Poland wiadro, and some of the group I became good friends with. Japanskk! continues to grow now. I wouldn't know too much, though. I am hardly ever with such gentlemen anymore. And I do miss the funny times, but we've grown apart, and that is something I cannot change.

Soon, it is March 2010 and I attend my first LAN, it is CIC7 with EnLANced, and I am very excited and have a splendid time and cannot wait for the next one. I meet great people, too many names to list. After the event I try a new team with people like Netherlands Overboost and United Kingdom Syk, which doesn't work out like we had intended. After a small inactive period, in which I get my first job and start socializing much more. I soon find myself playing for enhanced again after a number of failed projects, and somehow playing for IDK in EC. Then I'm back with Enhanced the next LAN, Sage LAN. A few days after this event and some time in Netherlands The Netherlands, I return back to my city, United Kingdom Manchester to fly out again only 4 days later to travel around Europe for 28 days with friends. I would come back changed beyond belief, and my passion for gaming nearly out, it's been a long road and I've met some amazing people, and I'm certainly glad I did it.

So where did it all start for you?